| Wednesday, April 29, 2009,10:11 PM |
In the light
Was one of a kind,
A precious pearl
When I wanted to cry
I couldn’t cause I
Wasn’t allowed
Gomennasai for everything
Gomennasai, I know I let you down
Gomennasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
What I thought wasn\'t all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain
When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself
Gomenasai for everything
Gomenasai, I know I let you down
Gomenasai till the end
never needed a friend
Like I do now
What I thought was a dream
An mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege
When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away
Gomeasai, for everything
Gomenasai, Gomen nasai,
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now
Gomenasai, I let you down
Gomenasai, Gomen nasai,
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now
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sorry for everything.
sorry till the end.
just... sorry...
to all of you.
| Sunday, April 12, 2009,10:31 PM |
im scared of next year.
i hope this year will never end.
i dont want to go to form 4.
i dont want to lose them.
i want them by my side, protecting me.
they're the only people keeping me from being insane.
i dont think i can live without them.
no, i know i cant live without them.
why is everyday getting worse and worse?
why does everyone beside me have to leave?
i dont want them to go.
it's my selfish wish but i dont want to see them leave me.
without them, i'll fall deeper and deeper into the hell hole.
maybe to the point that i cant stand up anymore.
im lousy, i need someone to pick me up.
but after all of them leave, who will?
i NEED them.
i'll be like a fish without water when they're gone.
i need support... i need someone to push me.
but without them.... non of that. i'll get non of that.
what will happen to me then?
even with them, im already losing it now.
what about the future without them?
i thought reych and jia leaving would be painful enough, but khew too?
what can i do without his support and comfort?
without him, what will happen to me?
what will i be?
nothing. i can do nothing.
i am nothing.
i cant do anything.
i hope i can wake up from this nightmare.
life sucks.
i hate it.
i know, i very terasa (but i think im right about some).
i dont care.
i want to hide somewhere and cry until i feel better.
i dont know.
why do i feel this way?
why do i have to care so damn much?
why do i have to keep suspecting?
as much as i love all the people who's cheering for me, routing for me, guiding me, cheering me up.
im sorry to be such a big disappointment and wasting your efforts.
an optimist. i was but no longer am.
but sadly, im not a pessimist either.
so what am i?
a loser.
a bitch.
oh, and to other people who dont know who i like but think they do.
stop trying to guess. ._.
because it isnt obvious.
even yapepe guessed wrong. and i was very surprised.
想跟我吵架 我沒那麼無聊
不懂得道歉 我沒那麼聰明
好想要回到我們的原點 Oh ~
你又在哭泣 我給不了安慰
我又在搖頭 有那麼點後悔
愛情的發展已難以回頭卻無法往前走
但身不由己出現在胸口 兩顆心能塞幾個問號
愛讓我們流多少眼淚
你的眼神充滿美麗 帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近 帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始 能不能給一秒
等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好
想跟我吵架 我沒那麼無聊
不懂得道歉 我沒那麼聰明
好想要回到我們的原點
但身不由己出現在胸口 兩顆心能塞幾個問號
愛讓我們流多少眼淚
你的眼神充滿美麗 帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近 帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始 能不能給一秒
等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好
你的眼神充滿美麗 帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近 帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始 能不能給一秒
等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的 美好
i miss someone very much.
to the point, that i feel very upset.
but that's not the only reason.
it hurts inside.
i want to go back to the hiding spot and talk to her again. ):
i want a new layout.
will work on it soon.
for those who bothered to read all this shit, you're weird but thanks.
ps:
mamii should go online more.
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